The Pixie
Sherry. Almost perfect 18.
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2.26.2011
On some days, I feel like everything's gg well. And on some days, I feel like everything doesnt stay in place.
Why cant things be permanent? Why cant it be the way I want it to be? Why must I go thru it the hard way when there's always an easy way? Dont get me wrong, I know the answers to all these questions but still, why do I have to go through a lot of downs in life just to get to the good ones?
I know all of you may think that im full of negativity and not having the self-confidence but you know what? It's hard. It's very hard. Life is an utter and complete mess no matter how perfect you want it to be. Accept that some days you're the pigeon, and some days, you're the statue.
We get up, we laugh, we live, we love but really, we still fall at times. Right? That's my point. Im tired. Tired of getting up, falling down on my knees and getting back up again. I admit, at some point in my life, I really feel like these life quotes are just there to keep us going. But what if they weren't there? Would we even have the strength to get back up? I know our friends and loved ones would be there for us but what if in this entire world, we dont really have anyone?
Im not letting anyone down, really, im not. I know that I shouldnt even be ranting about this and bringing every one down with me. But I just feel like im weak. And im not strong. I keep telling my friends to be but why cant I just tell myself to be? Why is it so difficult to convince myself?
I guess im a mess right now. In such a mess. I need to get my life straight. These stress on me isnt getting anywhere. Im always worrying and these thoughts, they keep haunting me. Why is it so easy to think of all the negativities but not the positivities? I prayed, I did everything I could to calm myself down but they just keep coming back.
Maybe, just maybe, I need faith and believe in myself. I need to start caring for myself and not letting myself down every single time. And when a good opportunity or moment comes, I would embrace it and not let my worries bother me.
But really, would it be easy for you to not worry and have this kind of thoughts at a time like this?
Why cant things be permanent? Why cant it be the way I want it to be? Why must I go thru it the hard way when there's always an easy way? Dont get me wrong, I know the answers to all these questions but still, why do I have to go through a lot of downs in life just to get to the good ones?
I know all of you may think that im full of negativity and not having the self-confidence but you know what? It's hard. It's very hard. Life is an utter and complete mess no matter how perfect you want it to be. Accept that some days you're the pigeon, and some days, you're the statue.
We get up, we laugh, we live, we love but really, we still fall at times. Right? That's my point. Im tired. Tired of getting up, falling down on my knees and getting back up again. I admit, at some point in my life, I really feel like these life quotes are just there to keep us going. But what if they weren't there? Would we even have the strength to get back up? I know our friends and loved ones would be there for us but what if in this entire world, we dont really have anyone?
Im not letting anyone down, really, im not. I know that I shouldnt even be ranting about this and bringing every one down with me. But I just feel like im weak. And im not strong. I keep telling my friends to be but why cant I just tell myself to be? Why is it so difficult to convince myself?
I guess im a mess right now. In such a mess. I need to get my life straight. These stress on me isnt getting anywhere. Im always worrying and these thoughts, they keep haunting me. Why is it so easy to think of all the negativities but not the positivities? I prayed, I did everything I could to calm myself down but they just keep coming back.
Maybe, just maybe, I need faith and believe in myself. I need to start caring for myself and not letting myself down every single time. And when a good opportunity or moment comes, I would embrace it and not let my worries bother me.
But really, would it be easy for you to not worry and have this kind of thoughts at a time like this?
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